Death

So I almost died yesterday morning. I woke up, placed my feet on my crisp carpet and went up stairs to make my breakfast. I made my tea and took my multi vitamin (yea I'm that healthy) and it happened.

Why must multi vitamins be so big? Sure they're full of goodness but really, do they have to be the size of horse pills? So I chopped it in half and took it. Somehow they took their former shape, went down width-wise and what was happening registered in my brain. I let out what would have been my dying words, gulped down my tea and sent the horse pills down a river of tea leaves and sugar.

Coming close to something that could have killed you I think should put things into prospective in your life. Shortly afterwards I thought of what my last words would have been, who would have found me dead on the kitchen floor, who I last talked to, and who I'd miss the most in my life.

I had this talk with a good friend a few weeks back. I know death is coming and there's nothing I can do to stop it. I'm okay with that as its a natural part of life. This morning just wasn't my time. If it was, I wouldn't be writing this now, would I? The only thing you can do is try to be ready for it. Clear the air, let those I love know who they are and hope it's not too painful.

Currently my heart is heavy as I have so much to give and say to someone out there, and I'm not mad that I could have died this morning as when it comes I'm honestly ready for it. What I am upset about is almost being denied the ability to give and say what is inside me to that someone. I have faith in that they know how i feel but sometimes faith isn't enough.

I'll spare you the dribble-poop and let them know in more detail. You reading this, let your people know as today might be your last chance to do so.

Sadly with day to day life, in the next week I'll slowly forget this lesson until my next encounter which hopefully never will come, but realistically could at any second. Be ready for it. Till then let those you love know it, keep your head up, ass down and powder dry.